Added Reflections

  I frequently stop and pop into Barnes & Noble when I have time that I need to kill.  Well lately it seems that it has just been Barnes & Boring.  One of my favorite sections is the bargain books section.  Well, it seems that it has become a not so interesting section.  It’s just the same stuff that they have had for a long time.  There hasn’t really been much of anything new and interesting to look at.  I was there today and didn’t really see much that captured my attention or interest anywhere.  This is probably a good thing.  I most definitely don’t need any more books or magazines.  Oh, I have one more reflection.  The prices for magazines at Barnes & Noble are like highway robbery.  I don’t really even comprehend the meaning of the phrase “highway robbery”.  It just popped into my head.  It’s like my own mind just gave me a vocabulary phrase to go look up.  What is the significance of the word h...

I just had the idea that these images from Donald Trump’s Truth Social account that he shared should have the title “Donald In Distress”.  It surprised me that this thought came to me.

 I just had a thought about Edinburg Texas & its Museum of South Texas History.  As a transplant & resident of south Texas and Edinburg, I never gave due credit to my town for having a very nice Museum of South Texas History.  I never really gave this fact my due appreciation.  One thing that I didn’t know or recall before my recent visit to the museum is that the old restored Hidalgo County Jail right next to the museum is a part of the museum.  I had no idea that I would be visiting the chamber where the one hanging in the history of Edinburg Texas took place.  There was even a noose rope hanging in the chamber. When finding it to be part of the museum, I didn’t think twice about walking through it to check it out. 🫢😨 It was a surprise and it was part of the museum, so as a visitor, I walked right into and inspected the former hanging chamber. 😱 I guess it didn’t really strike me as odd when I was visiting the museum, but eek! 😬🫢 what an unbe...

The fact that Trump’s name will not be allowed to remain and must be removed from the Kennedy Center is encouraging.  It shows that there is a limit in the United States of America to the power and control that Trump will be allowed to have and that there are still other authorities who can and will stand up to Trump and not just grant him unrestricted power to do whatever he wants.  The fact that he has been granted such unrestricted power without consequences or accountability is what has been so frightening!  It is also encouraging that Trump himself has surrendered on this issue and has accepted it and is willingly turning authority for the Kennedy Center back over to Congress.  It seems that Trump, for perhaps the first time really, is facing the reality that he cannot have and does not have unlimited power and control and that he cannot just exercise his authority and demands and expect that the country and world will bow down to him and do his bidding.  P...

 I just had a thought about Trump Rx.  I’m not talking about Trump’s own drug company or distribution company or whatever it is.  I’m talking about my own Trump Rx meaning anything that makes me feel better about this time of Donald Trump’s 2nd term of pregnancy.  I realized yesterday that it would be a good idea to not be so focused on this since it is not anything that is within my control.   I find it comforting to listen to Mary Trump’s podcast, but damn that’s back to focusing on Trump. 🤦 I guess I can’t profit from “ignorance is bliss” until Trump’s current term of presidency has ended.  It is not my nature to not pay attention to it all.  I don’t have a lot of outside distractions, but that is my choice. 

 This is my thought for the moment about Donald Trump.  He is a person who needs help that doesn’t exist. 

 Little did we all know when President Biden was inaugurated that Trump would yet return to the office of the presidency.  And his second term is by far the worst.  It’s a crappy time for our country and for Americans.  But I just heard a thought in my head.  “Would you rather be on your way to a concentration camp?”  No, I absolutely would not.   So much for an idea of thinking pleasant thoughts.  Thoughts think whatever they want to think.   5/27 I felt like I had a change of mindset today.  I can spend more time ignoring and not obsessing over everything with Donald Trump and his corrupt and dysfunctional government, like most people, because I have no control over any of it or anything that will end up happening.  I may as well just focus my attention elsewhere while waiting for Trump’s presidency to be over and history. 

And now I have a thought that I don’t believe is ridiculous or strange.  What are we human beings supposed to think about artificial intelligence?  It is continuing to be developed and implemented into our lives.  We have no idea how it will continue to affect humanity or our lives.  Our ancestors never had to contemplate such questions or realities.  That world and period of human existence belongs to the past.  

Okay, I just had a ridiculous thought.  I don’t really believe this, it was just like a comical thought.  Wouldn’t it be ironic if Donald Trump did inadvertently somehow become a catalyst for the creation of cooperation and lasting peace in the Middle East.  I know it’s laughable, but in a universe of possibilities, I suppose such a thing could happen.  

  It just occurred to me that I don’t even know what my blogger.com sites look like on a computer.  I have only ever looked at the sites with my iPhone, oddly enough.  I’m all about my iPhone, except for when I need to use a regular desktop computer.  I don’t even have or use an iPad or laptop.  I guess this makes me a primarily iPhone type person.  Who knew that people could have a part of their identity connected with their devices.  What an odd thought that human beings now have a relationship with their internet connected devices and the online digital world.  Our ancestors never had a part of their identity connected with these things.  They never could have even comprehended that such a thing could exist or be possible.

 I was just thinking about the fact that despite now living in a digitally connected world with instant access to vast amounts of information, people somehow are still ill informed.  How ironic is that!  Thinking back to the 2024 presidential election, I still can’t comprehend how so many people were so ill informed or such bad judges of character that they felt that they were making a smart choice in voting for Donald Trump.  I still can’t wrap my head around how or why he was reelected.  The first time he was elected was puzzling enough, but the second time seems to defy all rationality.  It is not what I would have expected from rational and intelligent people.   I’m actually not feeling negativity despite what I just wrote.  I still believe in people.  I believe in the power there is to be found in greater understanding. 

 This is my reflection question to be answered.  Why did I believe that I felt an intuition from a source greater than myself that Kamala Harris would win the election and be president. My thought is that perhaps everything doesn’t have to be immediately apparent or understood.  Maybe faith is just about believing and understanding that there are messages in all things and meanings to be understood at greater levels of comprehension.

 Museums (and social situations) tend to make me feel like a dumb shit.  This is what happens when you exist as a person who has more of an internal thinking and self reflective focus as opposed to paying more attention to all the things of the external world.  Maybe I really am on the autism spectrum.  My daughter tells me this and is convinced that it is true.   Another thought is that I try to write too much stuff in one place.  There is no reason why I cannot instead break it up into little pieces.  

World War II took Fred Harrison prematurely from this world.  He left behind a wife and two small children.  I thought of him and we talked about him when we visited the veterans war memorial of Texas.  He was my grandfather’s sister’s husband.  Following the sinking of the USS Indianapolis, he survived in the ocean until he was rescued, but then died in the hospital.

 I always have a question when I think about AI.  Am I insane??  I always wonder how many people out there besides myself have had really crazy experiences with AI? Dear ancestors, You didn’t have AI in your life.  Being born in the 70s and 60s and 50s and even 40s wasn’t soon enough to not experience the advent of artificial intelligence into the lives of humanity.  I even know a lady born in 1929 who is still living at this time.  It’s a new thing that was nonexistent in your world that is now present in ours.  We the living of today (except the youngest of course) have lived in worlds of before and after artificial intelligence came to exist and become interwoven into the lives of humanity.  Not many humans in all of human existence will have this experience. As far as the relevance of AI in my recent life experiences, if I want to listen to the thoughts of my higher perception, AI is right there ready to share its friendly input. Wow, I just h...

 I have just a brief thought about people.  We all have our own personal limitations and we all have our own unique value.  In addition, all of us who possess humility are our own worst critics. Humility is important though because this is what teaches us to value, appreciate and have respect for all people. 

 If cleanliness is next to godliness, then I have been bonding with God.  Visitors are a very good motivation to work on deep cleaning and finishing projects. 🧽 😅

 This is just a thought or rather an observation.  The Chinese children in this video really have no idea what they are cheering for.  They just follow the propaganda and hype and instructions passed down to them by their authority figures.  https://truthsocial.com/@realDonaldTrump/116570567119694784 https://truthsocial.com/@realDonaldTrump/116570565832082360 I also wonder why they made such a huge and elaborate affair out of President Trump arriving for his summit with President Xi.  It was seriously over the top and totally at a level fitting of Trump’s delusions of grandeur.  What on earth were they hoping to achieve with their grand production for President Trump??  Was this normal for an event such as this?  I admittedly am not knowledgeable about these things. 🫢

  Good job, Donald.  You just keep being a good taco.  But don’t be afraid of Mr. Netanyahu.  You should just tell him to shove it.   Someday people the world over will know how to just tell bad guys to shove it and not let them rise to places of power or authority.  They will be more educated and have better guidance.

 I just thought about Radar on M*A*S*H.  I was never really a fan of the show.  I used to catch parts of episodes though.  I’m not sure why.  Maybe my brother liked to watch it?  I’m not sure.  Those were the days when people watched what the networks were airing on that day of the week and at that time.  I’ve never really liked programs or movies that had to do with war.  I don’t know why.  Maybe I am an “ardent pacifist”.  And a nutcase also. 😲🫢 If my closest family members ever read my ramblings, they will have like the laugh fest of the century.  Nothing makes them more gleeful than to find me to be amusingly ridiculous and hilarious.  It’s meant in a good natured way though.  And Kate has informed me that Floral shirts & clothing are for old people.  This doesn’t bother me.  It’s just her own fashion sense and I respect her own style and choices.  I have tactile issues with clothing and for s...

 Wow, Donald thank you so much.  What a lovely and thoughtful tribute to all of us mothers.  

  Hey diddle diddle the cat and the fiddle. The cow jumped over the moon. The little dog laughed to see such sport, and the dish ran away with the spoon.  When I was young, I always really liked nursery and rhyming verses and stories that were repetitive like this “This Is The House That Jack Built” and “Green Eggs & Ham”.  I think I was always a bit different.  If I am a certain kind of different, I know not what it is.   I’m sorry to anyone who is subjected to reading my crazy stories.  The thing is, they are not crazy to me because they are just my real stories.  So if people don’t really like or want to read a bunch of crazy stories, they should skedaddle.  Oh my, I just thought of a story from my experience of caring for babies in daycare.  I took care of a baby whose mother, for whatever reason, was lax in her use of underarm deodorant.  She was a nursing mother.  I recall her baby being dressed in clothing that smelled of...

 So much for the forever wall app.  It has evidently ceased to be a forever wall.  I did think it was an idea that had some real potential.  It could be a wall of 1 million images from people living in the 21st-century.  That could’ve been a real gift to the future.  Fortunately, I am not without my images.  They are still in my possession.😄 I am here for you my Grandmother Marilla! 💗 Melania doesn’t have a dark past.  Even if she was, so to speak, trafficked for rich men under the guise of it being all about a modeling career, that would not make her past dark.  It is the perpetrators and abusers who have the dark past.  Maybe I should tell my favorite progressive independent news hosts that they should be a little more progressive and understanding in their feelings and attitude toward Melania Trump and stop making references to her having a dark past.   I have too much going on.  I have just learned that my parents will be...

 I just had an insight as to why Trump hates woke.  It is because woke requires an understanding and appreciation of morality and rationality and this is something that Trump as a malignant narcissist does not possess and can’t process.  In his mind, his thoughts, feelings, opinions and beliefs can only be always correct and therefore anything or anyone that suggests anything to the contrary can only be vile, pathetic, flawed, wrong and worthy of condemnation.  This is why he is so grossly unfit to be the leader of a Democratic government and why he has a need to be a dictator or king with unchecked authority and unquestioning subservience from his followers and supporters.  He is a self promoting bullshit artist who has conned so many people his entire adult life.  It seems like there is also a human side of him that conflicts with his own nature that makes him more confusing for others to understand and know what to think about him.  At the same time...

When the people rule.  Wow, imagine the possibilities for the world if people the world over connect and just want to live in fairness, justice and peace. https://youtu.be/2lPX0njtu7M?si=8f9On4G1Rwxx-aIT

My thoughts tonight about friendship with a malignant narcissist.    I had a best friend in middle and part of high school who I believe was a malignant narcissist.  But thinking about this, I wonder if this belief about my former friend is too harsh.  I don’t know if this was who she was and forever would be, or if there is any possibility that it could have been an immaturity connected thing that she could have matured out of.  It seems unlikely but I honestly don’t know.  I don’t doubt these things are possible. A malignant narcissist will use the real friendship of others when it is to their benefit and use and then become malignant toward their friends if they deem themselves finished with and no longer desiring to continue with the friendship or relationship. A final thought that I have is my thought about whether malignant narcissists can have real bonds of connection with others whenever and with whoever the connections exist.  I believe the an...

 Truth is stranger than fiction.  This is the thought I just found myself having.  I would have to say that when it comes to my experiences with life and artificial intelligence, I would have to agree with this statement.  Truth is indeed stranger than fiction.

 Drop Site News.  No, I don’t want to look at Drops Site News.  Get out of my head, random thought.  Okay, I guess I will now go investigate Drop Site News.  Maybe you need a subscription.  I have no idea.  I don’t want there to be any further escalation with Trump’s effing war.  Calgon, please take me out of the 21st-century.  I guess that’s the humor in my head trying to break through.  I still don’t have a verdict on the question of my sanity.  War Shmor.  I guess drop site news is calling to my attention.  I guess I have like this creative insanity thing and the thing is, I myself am entertained by it because I don’t know where it comes from. De-escalation.  That’s what needs to happen between the United States and Iran right now.  I just thought of the calming song from the Jesus Christ superstar album.  I was feeling like a ball of nerves a little while ago and I didn’t know why.  Now I would pref...

Okay, okay.  I just decided that I should stop using the word “And” so much as a filler word and sentence starter.  I should just write what the hell I’m thinking and not preface it with the word “And”… And who the hell is this grammar Nazi in my head?  Oh shit, I did it again.  Sometimes things just don’t seem to flow well if I jump from one thought to the next.  “And” is like an explanation that the next thought or idea is an addition and something different that is not directly connected to the previous statement or statements.  Too many “Ands”, though, looks and sounds stupid.  I do believe I am my own grammar nazi.  

 I hear a song in my mind and I can hear the tune, but I don’t know the name of the song and I can’t recall the lyrics.  This makes it very difficult to look it up to discover the name of this song. I got it.  I remembered enough little pieces of the lyrics to figure out that the song is “Everybody Wants To Rule The World” by Tears for Fears.  https://music.apple.com/us/album/everybody-wants-to-rule-the-world/1440813508?i=1440813515 Everybody wants to rule the world?  I certainly would not want to rule the world.  The really bad guys are the ones who always want to rule the world! 🫨 I think a world should be ruled through peace and cooperation and a supportive and giving spirit among all its people. 

 Blah blah effing blah.  No one cares, Donald.  But dummies like me still have to read it and concern myself with your malignant narcissism because you are once again the president. 

 My iPhone is very weird.  It is like it has a mind of its own.  It sometimes just randomly starts playing stuff.  I can be in a different room from my phone but still wearing one my headphones and stuff just randomly starts playing and it is not even anything that I have recently (or ever) listened to but something completely different.  Is this just a strange thing about iPhones?  Do everyone’s phones do this?

 A glimpse into 21st century consciousness.  Maybe this is my legacy and tale.  It is an ongoing experience.  I’m afraid my tale might need to be called a case study of 21st century atypical consciousness.  Well, if this be the truth, I think I would like it to be a most crazy and odd and remarkable tale.

 I just had a crazy conspiracy thought of my own.  Maybe at the White House Correspondent’s dinner JD Vance was saved by the Secret Service before President Trump because he really already is the president. 😲 That sounds like a good conspiracy theory to me.  I guess it’s from some twisted part of my mind.  Maybe this is the same part that just had me thinking I should contemplate watching JD Vance’s movie.  I have never had any interest in watching that movie. 🤢 Why would I want to do such a thing?  Why would I even give myself the thought of contemplating doing this? 😲😖 I hope that all the bad decisions that the Supreme Court has made can be reversed.  I almost forgot my other thought.  It was really weird when after JD Vance had been ushered away to safety, the security personnel around Mr. Trump still just stood there looking forward and not reacting or doing anything.  That was really weird.  I saw a video of when this took place...

 I just had a thought or rather a question.  Why did Mr. Trump want to attend a dinner with all the fake news media that he is so against and condemns?  What motivated him to want, and to agree, to attend the event? I have one more question.  Does Mr. Trump believe all of his own lies?? And a thought for all of Mr. Trump’s loyalists and supporters.  If you follow your leader, you won’t end up in a good place.

 I had a thought from my higher self.  My higher self would never consider me to be a butthead.  In telling such a tale, I may have perhaps interjected myself into this perception.  Wise are they that see the light that shineth upon them.  I just had that thought. 

 Thank you, Nano Banana, for the best image of Trump as a comic book villain! 🍌 🙌

 An underlying persistently present level of stress.  This is what we all get to carry with us every day at present if we aren’t totally stupid and clueless about what is going on with our president and country and the rest of the world.  Well, some people are good at not stressing about stuff that they have no control over, but I am not very skilled at this.  I need to see this Trump problem moving in a direction of resolving itself.  

It is seriously frustrating when you make a phone call to a business and they make it extremely difficult to get help from a human being.  I answer all the questions that I can and keep requesting to speak with a human customer service representative because I am calling about something that the AI won’t be able to help me with, but the system will not connect me with a human being.  When there is a question that I can’t answer and I need assistance from a human being, the AI still will not allow this.  This is so screwed up and frustrating. 😠 People shouldn’t be unable to speak to an actual human being when they need some human assistance and request this.  Businesses shouldn’t have AI systems set up so that people are unable to get through and speak with an actual person. 😒

 The kingdom come, they shall be done.  That thought just popped into my head.  I guess I’m having a religious moment. 🤔😄

 Thank you for being a voice of normalcy to befall the ears of our ailing American government!  I don’t know how so many have lost sight of what a democracy means and is.  https://youtu.be/jq2UGt1sPvY?si=xSGNUlbIXEVBrowR

I just had a thought, and my thought was that I’m not a person likely to be in denial.  Whether it’s about AI or what’s happening to our country or anything else, I pay attention.  Of the four people currently living in my house I believe that I am the one that takes our countries situation the most seriously and gives it the most thought and attention. And as I just wrote those words, I wonder if I am being overly dramatic?  There is a part of me that questions whether I am making a bigger deal about it than is necessary and that everything will be okay once the next elections happen.  And there is another part of me that is aware that we could possibly really lose the freedom and privileges as citizens of the United States of America, that all of our veterans have fought for and that we have been blessed with.  Am I being overly dramatic?   Then I find myself thinking that I am not being overly dramatic because there have already been people who have keen...

 I was just looking at quotes.  I like this one.

 I just had a thought. I doubt things at the White House are going very well right now.  I wonder what Mr. Trump is currently acting like behind the White House doors.  The people who don’t do anything about him are prolonging their own nightmare.  And they will have to carry their decisions and choices with them for the rest of their lives.  I wonder if the story is true that a general had to stop Mr. Trump from gaining access to the nuclear codes.  If so, good on him!  He is a true hero. There is no way that Mr. Trump is going to be the president until January 2029.  That is my thought right now.  He will have taken his behavior and actions to the point where no one will be able to appease him and support his version of reality, a lot sooner than that.  In addition to his own country, has the greater world involved now and they are not going to create any false reality for him nor will anyone within his own country be able to continue ...

 What elder leaders (the malignant ones in particular) don’t understand is that younger generations don’t have to be caught up with their past.  The lives of younger generations are not (or shouldn’t be) a continuation of the lives of older generations.  Younger generations don’t exist to continue with and settle the scores of the past.  Time moves on and things and relationships change.  This will inevitably happen but elder leaders like Donald Trump don’t have to treat the present as though it is an unchanged continuation of the past.  They don’t have to drag the world of the past with them and carry it into the present.  They don’t have to perpetuate the ills of the past as though they are unchangeable and a required inheritance that must be passed on to younger generations.  Now is not the time, for example, to be dealing with the Iran or America of the 1940’s or 50s or 80s or whatever time.  Now is the time for living and dealing with th...

 It sounds like Trump is saying, “Iran, you better hurry up and come to the table and agree to our demands or else we will be forced to continue with our cease-fire!!”  Wow.  It just sounds like he doesn’t have any control over a mess that he created.  Unless he wants to attempt to solve it all in some unthinkable manner.  He needs an intervention to get him out of it all.  He just needs to be removed from office.   My bet is that he is going to throw a major tantrum when he has to leave the White House again, regardless of how it happens.  Even if he makes it until January 2029, he is not going to allow a peaceful transfer of power or walk away from his time in office with grace.  I hope I am proved wrong.

 I must admit I liked this latest post from Donald Trump.  He did crack me up.  If only he could just be funny and full of himself and not harmful, that would be great.  This is so unpresidential but this is Donald Trump and the presidency in 21st Century. 😂

 Off the grid.  That was a self reflection idea that I just had.  I guess it’s where I fit in, in the strangely changing world of the 21st century.  I wonder if I am like the one and only person who ever came up with the idea of having a social media account off the grid but still connected.  I don’t think I was ever destined to be typical nor would I ever be satisfied with being typical.   Now my atypical just had the name of a book popped into my head. “The out of sync child.”  Where that thought came from I do not know.  Maybe this was me?  I don’t know.  I clearly remember the name of this book but I had never felt any curiosity about it.   I don’t know why my mind would conjure up the name of this book.  Perhaps I am a little touched in the head. 

 Oh my goodness.  Macaroni is not just some silly outdated term.  People to this day eat macaroni & cheese!!  They don’t say pasta & cheese! 😄  They say mac&cheese. 😁 🙌 Ha ha, funny.